Memorial Day 2015

Memorial Day is a federal holiday in the United States for remembering the people who died while serving in the country's armed forces.The holiday, which is observed every year on the last Monday of May,[2] originated as Decoration Day after the American Civil War in 1868, when the Grand Army of the Republic, an organization of Union veterans — established it as a time for the nation to decorate the graves of the war dead with flowers.[3] By the 20th century, competing Union and Confederate holiday traditions, celebrated on different days, had merged, and Memorial Day eventually extended to honor all Americans who died while in the military service. It typically marks the start of the summer vacation season, while Labor Day marks its end.

Many people visit cemeteries and memorials, particularly to honor those who have died in military service. Many volunteers place an American flag on each grave in national cemeteries.

 

 

The Celebration Cake is Yummy!

Celebrating 6 months of no chemo treatments! Also celebrating the goodness of God, He has brought me from a mighty long way since first being notified of Ovarian Cancer in my body. Thanks Mr. Camilo Calderon, Manager at Stephen Pyles on Ross St, for my favorite celebratory dessert; I send my prayers to him and his family. His sister lost her fight to cancer 2 years ago.  This is also where Tim and I got married. 

... disliked for who I am, than be loved...

  “I choose to be joyful always, praying continually, and giving thanks in all circumstances.   ~Me~ 

“I choose to be joyful always, praying continually, and giving thanks in all circumstances.   ~Me~ 

This is my life. I choose to live it conveying my truth and my beliefs.  I choose to live my life with balance, moderation, and self-control while utilizing my flexibility to change my thoughts, my ideas, my style, and my expressions.  Like my Creator, I, too, am a Creator.

As I evolve naturally and spiritually I create.  I redesign and redefine who I am and how I represent myself.

Thanks to God and my ovarian cancer experience, I am now at a place in life that I would rather be disliked for who I am, than be loved or respected for who I am not.   
~ alice gladney hamilton ~

 

 

  This is my life!   I choose balance, moderation,   self-control and change.

This is my life! I choose balance, moderation, self-control and change.





Thank you, and yes, I am paying it forward - 2015 hear I come!

This month has been filled with so many wonderful gifts from God, and delivered by His people.  I have experienced family love and appreciation at such beautiful and personal levels. Seriously, my family is so special and so very kind.  I am so blessed to be a member of my family.  I experienced amazing conversations with friends and family; I received wisdom, knowledge and advice that I would actually pay for, as you know, which is the best kind.  I experienced family, friends, and STRANGERS without prior knowledge give me various gifts, just because or The Holy Spirited directed them to do so. I have been blessed by two community organizations with assistance.  

I am so ready to play it forward, I am so excited about love through actions and prayer that I plan to give other people, community organizations and the cancer community.  My prayer is, Lord guide me down the right paths to fulfill your purpose, and be with me as I pay it forward!

Called to walk with God down paths of Peace.

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, and he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.  —Psalm 23:1–3
 

"I built into your very being the need for rest," says the Lord. I have been such a busy person for most of my life, that I have taught myself to feel guilty about meeting this basic need to rest.  And more importantly, I have taught myself to ignore my mind's signal when it tells me to rest.  Well, that season is now over!

Lord Jesus thanks for helping me over and over with this proven deadly addiction. How much time and energy I have waste by being always on the go and doing more than I should do to support the belief that "I am good enough."

But now, post cancer, very excitedly, I have been called to walk with God down paths of peaceful living, joyful living, restful living and all three are we required for balance living.  I rejoice at my future; my assignment is to become a daily living example of a person that dwells daily in God's peaceful, joyful and restful presence.
 
It so comforting knowing that the more I depend on The Holy Spirit, the more I am showered with joy, peace and rest.  Thanks you, Father God!

That which made me cry… now makes me smile

The same thing that made me cry months ago, now makes me smile. The thought of a bald head, the loss of my hair and my appearance with no hair had me crying.  And, I have come to really like me with a bald head; the thought of allowing it to grow back, kinda makes me sad.  It's interesting, both experiences represent my crown of glory. That which made me cry, now makes me smile.   Lord God, I am willing to see my magnificence, the many ways You reveal it too me.  I love you!

 

The lessons one can learn from having a "bad cold"

Thank you God, for the lessons that come through illness.  On Thursday, November 20, I was very aware of a cold entering my body, it was invading me, very slowly at first and by the 7th hour, I was feeling horrible.  Needless to say, I went to the doctor the next day, and was given a prescription of liquid medication to help me rest only. I was given no prescriptions for coughing, nasal/chest congestion, antibiotic or anything else.  I thought this interesting, because God has been dealing with me about the importance of REST for my body for the last 5 years! 

My doctor, Dr. Gonino says rest, prayer, listening to The Holy Spirit, Tylenol for the fever and Advil for the body aches are the most important things to do, well I took the doctors advise, and on day 5, I am feeling well enough to type this message.  In addition, I am feeling rather wise, thanks to listening to the voice of The Holy Spirit.  Did I say, I love my doctor, He's awesome; and he says, "Love heals."

After being diagnosed and going through the horrible cancer related medical treatment, I make a promise to myself, which is "the reminder of my life will not be live the same." Initially, I had the idea that I would be more of service to others, and etc, and for sure, I will do continue to do this. However, as of today, my first line of duty is pledged to me - to love me greater, teach other through my treatment of myself, what's acceptable and non acceptable treatment of towards me. 

I believe God allows illness and crisis to come into our lives to remind us of what we need, not to be confused with what we want. If you think about it, life is a series of crisis, so if we can change our thought about illness/crisis and see it as an opportunity to reveal what our spirit is in NEED of.  And, I am needing to receive and give whole hearted love, and it starts with loving me. As we know from the bible "perfect love has no fear."

After going through the symptoms of a very a very bad cold, I am more clear on what that looks like for me. Over the last few nights, I have spoken to God frequently about some of my inner thoughts about my life, His will and Plan for my life; and I realized that God wants me to love and be an expression of His love, as this is my friend the true, but hidden beauty of life.  We keep this gift away from us, because people are so afraid to truly love, whole heartily. We don't want to be hurt, its this gift of life, that we rarely experience. I have experienced glimpse of this type of love given from me, and received by me.

Let me share with you on a side note what's in my spirit, and that is "if you love whole heartily another person, they must return it or they will be removed from your life or for a period time, when they are ready to receive and return it."  Love demands equal and like minded attraction, I know this is deep, you can call me, and I will be happy to break it down.  

God wants me to continue to raise to bar of love for myself, as I can only love another as much as I love myself.  Which also mean, I can only receive the equal level love within me, from another.  So you can see, why continually learning to raise the bar of love for yourself.  Wow, I know, I thought to myself, God, help me to receive Your Words of Wisdom.  After thinking about, I said, "Lord, I have been doing this," I smile, because I could see the changes in others, in how they are expressing love to me. However, God is saying the bar MUST keep raising.

 

This is a true secret we keep from ourselves, however, if we receive this scripture, our life can change today. 
Scribe: Tell me, Teacher. What is the most important thing that God commands in the law?
Jesus: 29 The most important commandment is this:…"You should love the Eternal, your God, with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength.” The second great commandment is this: “Love others in the same way you love yourself.”

There are no commandments more important than these. Wow.
Can you receive this?  God please help me/us to receive these two simple commandments.
    
So today I declare, I will love God with all my heart (note not actions…), and I will no longer change the way I love, because of the actions others. I will love 100%. I will not fear love. I will love with all of me.  I realize my time her may not be much longer, and then again, I may have 50 years remaining, only God knows.  However, I will accept the love I offer, which is worthy, kind and respectful, honest love.  As that is the kind of love that I need, I am now clear on that.  My loves may say, "its not fair of you to expect all of me", but thats what I need, that's what I want.

You may think to yourself, Alice, this would be scary to tell my husband, son, daughter, mother, sister, friend, well its not. If you decide that you want to raise the bar in your life, and express love with your whole heart, as I am choosing to do, just ask God to help you.  I did, and God did too; God may have tell others or simple keep it to yourself and proceed with true Godly love. 

There is a natural and pure high of love that I am feeling now, its like love and gold dust in MY air, l spoke with my son, and texted with my son, I spoke with my sister and read a text from my sister. I shared words of love, forgiveness of pass sins with my husband, and he shared with me, he said, he would return what I was offering/creating for myself. I realized after speaking with him, its my truth that determines the outcome of my life, and its not my personal business what his truths are.   And I felt so free, like a firecracker type love in the air, its wonder to love with your whole heart!  

 

 

My CA125 test score was 2.5 on Friday, November 7th

My CA 125 test score was "2.5" on Friday, November 7th; thank you God, I am so blessed to have you has my Savior! 

My score was over 2300 on the day of surgery, March 26th; 77 one month after surgery, 15 two months after surgery, 7 three months after surgery, 5 four months after surgery and now its 2.5 entering 8 months after surgery. 

Information: women should demand a CA-125 test for ovarian cancer each year. It quotes a woman who says her ovarian cancer had been overlooked when it was misdiagnosed as irritable bowel syndrome. The writer says she insisted on more tests and had a CT scan that revealed fluid in her abdomen, at which point her doctor ran a CA-125 blood test and her level came back at a highly elevated 754. The email says: "This is an inexpensive and simple blood test. Please tell all your female friends and relatives to insist on a CA-125 blood test every year as part of their annual exam. Don't take 'No' for an answer. If I had known then what I know now, we would have caught my cancer much earlier before it was Stage 3!"

Fact:

Debbie Saslow, PhD, director of breast and cervical cancer for the American Cancer Society, says CA-125 protein levels in the blood can be measured as a marker for ovarian cancer, but should not be used to screen for the disease. “The test is not appropriate for routine screening because of its poor accuracy; there are some harmless reasons CA-125 levels can be elevated, and not all women with an ovarian tumor will have an increased level,” she said. 

"Testing is recommended for women at very high risk, such as those with a family history of the disease," she added. The CA-125 blood test is routinely used for women diagnosed with ovarian cancer to measure their response to treatments, as well as to watch for recurrence.

Be still, and know…

Be still, and know that I am God.
~Psalm 46:10~


Hi all, it has been a several weeks since I have posted, thanks to God and your prayers, my health has been continually improving each day. I am very grateful, and so blessed.  

I have been in a good place of being still and enhancing my relationship with God.  I will restart my blogging in the next day or two; again, thanks for your prayers.  I love you! 

Feeling Blessed...

It one thing to know you are blessed, that's a good thing; in fact, it's the best of knowledge. However, I personally love the feeling of being blessed, it's my greatest high.  

I took this glamour shot photo to capture the memories of where my Ovarian Cancer experiences (both pain and joy) delivered me too.

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Which is a beautiful place of awareness of God's great love and awesome desire to take care of me.  I have learned that my role is to let Him. 

Cancer is a physical and emotional suffering journey; its awful. I pray that no person would have to experience it. But if you do, I pray that your journey lead you to the big and open welcoming arms of God's love, which is a wonderful place to be. 

Thank you God, you are indeed my Lord and Savior.  


Update…

Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
—1 Peter 5:6–7

Hi all, I pray that all is well with you, as for me I am blessed, and thanks to God I am good. Its has been a couple of weeks since I posted.  Well, I have been going to my weekly medical visits  at Gonino Center for Healing, and I continue to be amazed and thankful at my progress due to the treatments I receive there. I am so blessed.

In addition, September 2014, my birth month was wonderful; I had the opportunity to break bread and celebrate with several friends and family members.  And because of my cancer experience, I was able to really appreciate the gift of turning 52 years old,  in a very special way; I realize each day of life is indeed a gift. Thanks God for the gift of life!

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Do you have a cancer personality?

The late Douglas Brodie, M.D., H.M.D, treated thousands of cancer patients during his years as director of the Cancer Care Center in Reno, Nevada.  He found the person most susceptible to cancer has the following characteristics:

  1. A tendency to be highly conscientious, dutiful, responsible, caring, hard working, and usually of above average intelligence.
  2. A propensity toward caring other people’s burdens, taking on extra obligations, even to the point of worrying for others.
  3. Showing a deep-seated need to make others happy, tending to be “people pleasers.”  Having a great need for approval.
  4. Having a long-standing history of suppressing negative emotions, such as anger, hostility, and resentment.  Typically, the cancer susceptible individual keeps these emotions bottled up inside and has great difficulty expressing them.
  5. Has a history of lack of closeness with one or both parents, resulting in a lack of closeness with spouse or with others who would otherwise normally be close.
  6. Frequently reacts adversely to stress, often becoming unable to cope adequately with it.  Usually has experienced an especially traumatic event about two years before cancer is discovered, and has not been able to cope with that traumatic event.
  7. Is unable to resolve deep-seated emotional problems, conflicts, and burdens.

 The personality type most likely to develop cancer has been suppressing “toxic emotions,” particularly anger.  Frequently, these feelings go back to childhood and to feelings of being rejected by one or both parents.  Whether or not there really was rejection is not the issue.  It is the perception of rejection that matters, and this can really snowball.

 People at high risk for cancer tend to develop feelings of loneliness as a result of having been deprived of affection and acceptance earlier in life, even if this just their own perception and is not true.  As a result they have huge needs for approval and become the caretaker of the world.

 In his practice, Dr. Brodie found that one of the biggest challenges for these individuals is to change how they react to stress, how they take on obligations, and the way they react to stress, how they take on obligations and the way they interact with others. For many making these changes is just too hard to do, even in the face of life threatening illness.

Do any of these personality traits apply to you? Do you have unresolved emotions from your past that are eating you up? Is your whole life spent giving and giving, while everyone around you only seems to take? Even if on a couple of these ring true, please take the time to reassess your life.         - Inserts taken from the book “Miracles Real Super Foods That Heal.” - 

 

Happy Birthday – Playing it Forward Blessing Lessons from Me, a Cancer Survivor

Happy Birthday – Playing it Forward Blessing Lessons from Me, a Cancer Survivor

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The last 7 months of this year has been filled with many awe-inspiring physical and emotional challenges. I have struggled with the emotional changes as a result of being diagnosed with cancer, a nearly 7 hour surgery, 7 days hospital stay, months of 7 consecutive hours days of chemo treatment, a fatigued and painful body, a rainbow of medications, hair loss, and the letting go of “self-independence”. But thanks to God, the chemo has ended, and my new joyous healthy rebuilding has begun. Currently, I am building a healthy immunize system with the help of the Dr Gonino's Wellness Healing Center (http://www.goninowellness.com) and the leading of The Holy Spirit.

Very sadly, as you might imagine it would be, being diagnosed with Stage III Ovarian Cancer in February 2014 was initially frighten; although unknowingly, the cancer was living aggressively within my body since 2013, which lead me directly to the front door of unwanted life choices.  I realized instantly that my death may be much sooner than later.  Little did I know, the actual healing - of the many processes of cancer, would lead me to the awesome awareness and growth of my greatest intimate love relationship ever, with My Lord and Savior.  In addition, I have raised the bar high of love for myself as well as others; and removed some very deep-rooted emotional baggage of unconscious un-forgiveness towards myself and other people.

I am so thankful and grateful to God, My Lord and Savior, my immediate family, my inner circle friends, medical staff, new acquaintances I met on this journey, the Obama Care (HCA) healthcare purchase at HA Insurance (http://haainsurance.com), the importance of affirmations from My Season (http://mykairosseason.com), introduction to the Zeal for Life Drink (https://mykairosseason.zealforlife) referred to me by Mrs. Patton and the opportunity to briefly share with you on my 52nd birthday that – I am a Cancer Survivor!

And to the reader of this message, I share 7 of my many cancer infused lessons learned over the last 7 months. I pray they will bless you as they have me.

1. Stress (unmanaged/unaware) is a deadly addiction that can serve as an intimate helpmate to the ultimate ‘cause’ of a graveyard death. 

2. Routinely resting my mind, forgiveness of myself and others and exercising my body is the cemented road to a healthy life style. Letting The Promises of God fight my every battle leads me to an assured joyous victory.

3. Be open to others opinion especially when they are not in agreement with yours; you may learn something.  Be watchful of other peoples choices, actions and outcomes, but not, judgmental of them. When given (not aggressively taken) an opportunity to offer your opinion, share it, because others may be seeking a different or higher choice. 

4. My fears as well as the people (who serve as villain) in my life experiences can’t hurt me, unless I choose “me-centered” hurtful, angry, shameful, pity or victim related thoughts - about their words and or actions involving me.

5. Other People invest very little deep thought and personal time in their actions to hurt me.  The truth is I am just a sidebar on their way to their chosen end; it’s never about me, but a mirrored reflection of what’s going on within their own life.

6. Perfection, Peace and Purpose is found in the processes of life; I have to just pay attention to my conscious thoughts, and ask God for truth regarding my unconscious thoughts, because the voices and sounds within reveal through my life.

7. Last, for most importantly, I realized that God is indeed Trustworthy to take good care of me.  And His Promises are true, powerful, operative, healing, positive, energizing and truly sharper than any two edged sword; and only God can reveal the very thoughts and purpose of each our hearts. Based upon Hebrew 4:12

 

I love Zumba!

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Thank you Lord, I do love and appreciate my Zumba exercises and classes. I wasn't able to work it, like I have in the past, but I am coming back.  It's been over 8 months since I attended a Zumba class, prior to tonight, due to the cancer diagnosis, surgery, chemo and related treatment. It was such a blessing to be back, shake it and see old friends and acquaintances.  God is so good to me!

Healing Visits @ Gonino Healing Center - September 9th & 15th

This is a good life—my heart is glad, my soul is full of joy, and my body is at rest. Who could want for more? Psalm 16:9

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My medical visits at Gonino Center for Healing went very well on both visits; I am so amazed and thankful at my progress.

My blood pressure is returning to normal, thanks for your prayers.  My chiropractic adjustments, therapeutic  massages and IV treatments are all enhancing my overall health; I can see and feel the Hands of God improving greatly my overall health.  

My next visit is scheduled for next Wednesday, September 24; I am looking forward to it greatly.  Who knew that going to the doctor's office/healing center could bring so much joy.  Healing, restoration and being renewed is really groovy!  

Only God and His angels to lead me to this healing place of love, both physically and emotionally.  I am indeed a blessed woman of God, thanks to all for your prayers, well wishes and kind thoughts.