My Body Experience - What cancer looks like and how it makes you feel?

Several individuals have inquired of me, what cancer looks like and how it makes you feel?  
Not everyone feels pain or experience cancer in the same way; only that individual can describe their experience, so here’s my story:

Before being diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer Stage III 3 Cancer, I didn’t have a genuine clue what it was; more importantly, how this disease alters the daily lives of those and their loved one’s who have experienced this ugly disease.  I am writing this particular post to educate you only, and NOT obtain pity.   Note:  Not all days are “all” physically and or emotionally bad days.

 Life is but a mirror of our experiences…

Life is but a mirror of our experiences…

One of the most unique feelings of cancer is the overall sense there's something in your body that is out of order and that it should not be there;  it's like a poison. It's also like a dark cloud of some sort that weigh on your essence.  Personally, I see it now as a constant reminder for the need to stay connected with the Holy Spirit, God, The Creator and The One. There a knowing within you that your belief in God IS your hope to glory. 

Common & Frequent Side effects of My Cancer Chemotherapy Experience:

  • Fatigue:  Fatigue (a persistent sense of tiredness or exhaustion) 
  • Pain: The common pain experienced by me, cramping, pin needle pain, including headaches, muscle pain, stomach pain, and pain from nerve damage, such as burning, numbness, or shooting pains (most often in the fingers and toes).  
  • Changes in thinking and memory: Difficulty thinking clearly, staying focused and concentrating after and during chemotherapy 
  • Mental Health Challenges:  Feeling irritable, anxiety, low interest in being around other people and in normal activities  
  • Nausea and vomiting:
  • Appetite loss: Side effect to chemotherapy medication (years of eating without being hungry has helped me on this one, because eating and drinking in your medicine while receiving chemo treatment)
  • Appetite Increase:  Side effect to steroid and various other medications
  • Hair Loss:  I have loss hair from all over my body, both gradually and in clumps. 
  • Constipation:
  • Diarrhea:
  • Mouth:  Chemotherapy can damage the cells that line the mouth and throat. It changes my taste buds frequently. My lips, tongue and inner mouth has a different and odd feel. I brush my teeth with toothpaste, and rinse my mouth with baking soda and salt generally 6-8 times a day for healthy hygiene, to decrease the risk of mouth sores, Praise God, I have not experience mouth sores.
  • Nervous system effects:  I have experienced:  Weakness or numbness in the hands and/or feet, weak, sore, tired, or achy muscles, loss of balance and clumsiness
  • Sexual: Sexual intercourse in allowable; I have mental, visual and physical challenged opportunities as a result of chemotherapy 
  • Blood disorders:  Chemotherapy affects the production of new blood cells in the bone marrow, the spongy, inner mass of the bone.  Note:  I received a proactive shot for this… and the 7-8 hours of intense pain, made death seem like the best way out.

The good news is most side effects of chemotherapy disappear at the end of treatment. However, some side effects may continue, come back, or develop later.

 Help me Father God to start living the life You created for me with all the joy, love and laughter you have placed in me!   

Help me Father God to start living the life You created for me with all the joy, love and laughter you have placed in me!