Cancer Ancer & Cal

My CA125 test score was 2.5 on Friday, November 7th

My CA 125 test score was "2.5" on Friday, November 7th; thank you God, I am so blessed to have you has my Savior! 

My score was over 2300 on the day of surgery, March 26th; 77 one month after surgery, 15 two months after surgery, 7 three months after surgery, 5 four months after surgery and now its 2.5 entering 8 months after surgery. 

Information: women should demand a CA-125 test for ovarian cancer each year. It quotes a woman who says her ovarian cancer had been overlooked when it was misdiagnosed as irritable bowel syndrome. The writer says she insisted on more tests and had a CT scan that revealed fluid in her abdomen, at which point her doctor ran a CA-125 blood test and her level came back at a highly elevated 754. The email says: "This is an inexpensive and simple blood test. Please tell all your female friends and relatives to insist on a CA-125 blood test every year as part of their annual exam. Don't take 'No' for an answer. If I had known then what I know now, we would have caught my cancer much earlier before it was Stage 3!"

Fact:

Debbie Saslow, PhD, director of breast and cervical cancer for the American Cancer Society, says CA-125 protein levels in the blood can be measured as a marker for ovarian cancer, but should not be used to screen for the disease. “The test is not appropriate for routine screening because of its poor accuracy; there are some harmless reasons CA-125 levels can be elevated, and not all women with an ovarian tumor will have an increased level,” she said. 

"Testing is recommended for women at very high risk, such as those with a family history of the disease," she added. The CA-125 blood test is routinely used for women diagnosed with ovarian cancer to measure their response to treatments, as well as to watch for recurrence.

Could the bottom be the top? Trusting God…

Today, Sunday, June 22, 2014: Brother Joel Osteen said on this television broadcast, “this situation (fill in the blank)  is not the end of your story…" My heart warmed, because God had assured my spirit the night before of the same. And that my current life experiences is the beginning of a great epic.

 Late Yesterday evening, I battled with self-pity that should up in my thoughts: sickness, no job, a no income and the dependency upon another person or other people. Of which, these experiences feels has unpleasant as I had imagined they would, especially dependency – it down right sucks!!! 

Briefly, I thought to myself:

  • "God, how low must I go?"
     
  • “God, seriously, was I the sower of such horrible seeds?”
     
  • "God, you have placed me just where you want me, you are my only hope.”
     
  •  And then, I started reminding God of my “giving of so much of my life, time and money to help others;” clearly, He didn’t know, otherwise, I would be reaping a different harvest. (Smiling)

While taking a walk alone, praying to God last night around 8:00PM, I realized what I thought was my bottom, was really my top, because I am living in the conscious awareness that I am God’s responsibility now, and not my own.  And just like the Birds and many other animals, that don’t know where their next … is coming; I too have the assurance of God’s Word that my help and needs will be met, as they are coming from the Lord.   Thank you God; I love you!


 

Spiritual Conversation with My Chemo Nurse

Spiritual Conversation with My Chemo Nurse

This amazing conversation started when my Chemo Nurse said to me, in response to a question I asked, she does not watch TV, because she rather do outside activities and spend time alone. She had been that way since a child growing up on a farm, where neighbors did not live close. One of the many questions I asked "What do you with all of that non-television watching time?"  She answered my questions. The conversation lead me too an extremely VISUAL thought, on how to view my Spiritual-Self (with God Power); which is:

 "My BODY lives within My Spirit." 

In the past, I visualized God dwelling in by body, through my body, around my body however, my visual DID NOT include God as the Commander; even though, I often said the Spirt of God fills and surrounds me.  I had not realized in my prior vision the Order of Command in that visual. Now, I ponder the power of that awesome awareness now. Could I have unconsciously given the God's power to my body (emotions)?  We are Spirit, Body & Soul, and the Spirit is the Official (God is the assigned Commander of the Body and Emotions). 

If you can visualize your Spirit as this big full circle of Energy, now step your Body into the Circle. This reveals the official order of command.  The Spirit commands the Body and Soul. Wow! I believe this changes how you see God and equally important, how you see yourself. 

The right/left, ying/yang, of this, is we may live life in a state of FALSE-BELIFE that the body and emotions are commanders in our lives. Thereby living a life were we are unaware that our Spiritual Self tells our Body & Soul what to do, and NOT the other way. 

However, we often ? Read on…  Or imagine on, if you will.  

Spirit (we are Created in God's Image) and our bodies LIVE WITHIN our Spirit. So that means our soul (emotions) lives within our Spirit too. Wow! Wow!  

The right/left, ying/yang and good/bad of this is we maybe allowing ourself to live life in a state of FALSE-BELIFE/UNAWARENESS; living life in a manner that's NOT for our high-good. We may be living our lives were Our Body and or Our Emotions are literally (through thought) The Commanders in our lives, instead of God. 

Hopefully,I have given You, something to think about as well. 

Thank you God!  Thank you Nurse K. Thank you Pastor Byron, I finally got the Big Picture! 

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Chemo Treatment Day 4 - Week 5

On June 4, 2014 - Notes happening of the day listed below:  I can truly say, it was great because, I was educated, shared, received and informative information.

Today was a good day, there were no complications at all with the chemo treatment, every performed as it should.  The nurse were so kind and serving at all times, it was amazing chemo actually, I met two super kind and very smart sisters, one reminded me on my dear friend Mary and the other sister reminded me on myself and my sister. We shared tips and a few life experiences.  It was like handing out at the pool with great and trusted neighbors. 

 

May I speak with the Doctor Please:
I requested to meet with my doctor regarding a chemo treatments change;  I have prayed and will hear God's answers through is voice and both our voice will be change to line up with the Will of God were needed.  As I and the doctor work as a team, but the Holy Spirit is our Commander.  

 

I defined my definition of "Are you Ready vs. Are you available?"
"I am READY" means All of me (Spirit, Body, Soul) is present in this moment.
"I am AVAILABLE" means I am here.


My Bath:  

Yeah, I took my first "sit down in tub bath" tonight; showers are great, but a bath is what I was desiring.  Thank you tub makers.  Thank you God!

My Husband:
He has been faithful with support of me, he has been such a blessing; I told him he has so many brownie-points that are available for usage. Lord, Bless Him Indeed!


Intimacy Restored:
My eight weeks of healing my female organs has been restored and activated; we are happy about this as a couple as you might imagine. But, I didn't realize that my visual imagination tools, emotional desire, sexy female identity, mental desire and my visual imagination tools would need restoring too. All is well, because "I AM" is with us!  Thank you God.

 

Spiritual Conversation with My Chemo Nurse:  (REPEATED ON SEPARATE POST)

This amazing conversation started when my Chemo Nurse said to me, in response to a question I asked, she does not watch TV, because she rather do outside activities and spend time alone. She had been that way since a child growing up on a farm, where neighbors did not live close. One of the many questions I asked "What do you with all of that non-television watching time?"  She answered my questions. The conversation lead me too an extremely VISUAL thought, on how to view my Spiritual-Self (with God Power); which is:

 "My BODY lives within My Spirit." 
In the past, I visualized God dwelling in by body, through my body, around my body however, my visual DID NOT include God as the Commander; even though, I often said the Spirt of God fills and surrounds me.  I had not realized in my prior vision the Order of Command in that visual. Now, I ponder the power of that awesome awareness now. Could I have unconsciously given the God's power to my body (emotions)?  We are Spirit, Body & Soul, and the Spirit is the Official (God is the assigned Commander of the Body and Emotions). 

If you can visualize your Spirit as this big full circle of Energy, now step your Body into the Circle. This reveals the official order of command.  The Spirit commands the Body and Soul. Wow! I believe this changes how you see God and equally important, how you see yourself. 

The right/left, ying/yang, of this, is we may live life in a state of FALSE-BELIFE that the body and emotions are commanders in our lives. Thereby living a life were we are unaware that our Spiritual Self tells our Body & Soul what to do, and NOT the other way. 

However, we often ? Read on…  Or imagine on, if you will.  

Spirit (we are Created in God's Image) and our bodies LIVE WITHIN our Spirit. So that means our soul (emotions) lives within our Spirit too. Wow! Wow!  

The right/left, ying/yang and good/bad of this is we maybe allowing ourself to live life in a state of FALSE-BELIFE/UNAWARENESS; living life in a manner that's NOT for our high-good. We may be living our lives were Our Body and or Our Emotions are literally (through thought) The Commanders in our lives, instead of God. 

Hopefully,I have given You, something to think about as well. 

Thank you God!  Thank you Nurse K. Thank you Pastor Byron, I finally got the Big Picture! 

My CA-125 Test Score is 15!

My CA 125 test score came back at 15 yesterday.  Wow, thank you God. My score was over 2300 right  before surgery a couple of months ago, and 77 a month ago.  I am still; God I am waiting on you as you are my God!

 Information: women should demand a CA-125 test for ovarian cancer each year. It quotes a woman who says her ovarian cancer had been overlooked when it was misdiagnosed as irritable bowel syndrome. The writer says she insisted on more tests and had a CT scan that revealed fluid in her abdomen, at which point her doctor ran a CA-125 blood test and her level came back at a highly elevated 754. The email says: "This is an inexpensive and simple blood test. Please tell all your female friends and relatives to insist on a CA-125 blood test every year as part of their annual exam. Don't take 'No' for an answer. If I had known then what I know now, we would have caught my cancer much earlier before it was Stage 3!"

Fact:

Debbie Saslow, PhD, director of breast and cervical cancer for the American Cancer Society, says CA-125 protein levels in the blood can be measured as a marker for ovarian cancer, but should not be used to screen for the disease. “The test is not appropriate for routine screening because of its poor accuracy; there are some harmless reasons CA-125 levels can be elevated, and not all women with an ovarian tumor will have an increased level,” she said. 

"Testing is recommended for women at very high risk, such as those with a family history of the disease," she added. The CA-125 blood test is routinely used for women diagnosed with ovarian cancer to measure their response to treatments, as well as to watch for recurrence.

 

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The Many Gifts of Life

If life's indeed a gift, and our experiences are the gift boxes they show up in, does it make it any less a gift when the box isn't pretty?

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Or do we simply need to redefine what pretty is? If yes, then...cancer, how beautiful your journey of experiences and observations you will bring..,  

So, is it Merry Christmas or Merry Cancer?  Any ways, thanks Holy Spirit for the true gifts of life. And help me to see the beauty, however the package is delivered. 

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This is an example of gift of life. Indeed, life's a cinch; when you have God, family and friends. Someone told me when this cancer journey began that I was going to need my family during this journey that sure were right. Thanks Tim for this beautiful card. 

The new face, and substitute hair of cancer?

Look out God's light shinning is thru me, because of your prayer and well wishes. As mama use to say, you don't have to look bad, when feeling bad. :) Also I am now using my first and second name, which is Alice Faye, because there is a new me transitioning thru this cancer/chemo experience. This photo taken the day after my 2nd chemo treatment. By the way, Faye is the 7 year old little girl spirit part of me - that truly finds joy and excitement in the unknown blessings/gift that are ahead of me and within me.  Lord, bless me indeed and thanks for helping me God!